Unconscious Sabotage ...?

Have you heard of "unconscious sabotage"? Where someone might have all the resources to be "successful" in many different ways - but it just doesn't happen? Have you ever had goals which just don't seem to want to materialise, no matter how hard you prayed, visualised, worked, day in, day out? If so, read on - this is a different take on the concept of "unconscious sabotage" from the MindMillion list.

There is this thing I've been interested in for a long time, some like to call it "unconscious sabotage" but I like to call it ACTUAL REALITY.

People talk a lot and they think a lot.

It's what they do that shows you what is truly going on with them.

Even if there is a parts conflict, you can see clearly by their live life results which part is winning, and which part is losing and whining.

It's really very simple.

I'm always whining about the fact that I don't have a boyfriend, but the FACT IS THAT I DON'T HAVE ONE.

Which means that those aspects of me that don't want one are winning out, they have the stronger argument, the stronger energy set ups, whatever you want to call that.

Now some folk might call that "unconscious sabotage" but as I said, I don't presume to know the ways of the human incarnation or what's best for a person.

Instead of presuming that there's something wrong with me, why not start by accepting that this is how it is. That for some reason, I don't want a boyfriend and have made sure I don't have one for 15 years now, solidly, and never wavering, regardless of whether I'm drunk or sober.

Those are the facts.

That is how it is.

Now, that's not the "It's a Wonderful Life" style of 1950s muppet paradise, but who's to say that for some people, a DIFFERENT life style isn't indicated or even correct?

You can also ask, well what HAVE you been focussing your attention on for the past 15 years, if it WASN'T getting pretty for a boyfriend with all the hard work that entails and the maintenance and so forth; all that time you DIDN'T spend hanging out in bars, interacting with blokes, having blokey dramas and then getting therapy from friends about the daily blokey dramas and the breakups and the next one comes along and then there's the next drama and a couple of marriages and divorces and and and ...?

And what I actually really HAVE been spending MY time and attention on for those last 15 years, EXCLUSIVELY, one might say, is trying to work out a cosmology for myself, to get my relationship with the Creative Order straight.

Clearly, from my ACTIONS throughout, that has been the priority to me; because that's what I actually do, no matter what I SAY or THINK I think I want!

This is also a fact. Not just one fact, but an unbroken line of incontrovertible physical evidence, spanning EVERY DAY and EVERY NIGHT of those 15 years, never faltering, never wavering, never losing interest or fascination at all, not ever.

And still, and amazingly, for all this time I STILL thought that what I wanted, what I really wanted - was a boyfriend!

How extraordinary is that!

When I did the goal setting exercise, I saw that.

Namely, that I've been living with and dating the CREATIVE ORDER for 15 years now. Instead of waking up in the mornings and looking at a boyfriend, I wake up in the mornings and look at the creative order, and compare it to the maps I've made of it so far.

That's it. Simple. Completely true.

The only person who didn't know this consciously was me.

There was no unconscious sabotage at all.

*****WHAT THERE WAS WERE ATTEMPTS OF CONSCIOUS SABOTAGE******

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And they kept failing as I kept faithfully on my path.

That is the self same path I've always been on, ever since I can remember; and the one I'm still on right now.

For some obscure reason, the Creative Order is more important to me than any one other person and as far as I remember, that's always been the case.

Amazingly, the more treatments on "romance trauma" I've done, the more congruently correct my so called "unconscious sabotage" has proven itself to be, and the more I understand that it was right, and *I* was wrong to go with the "Hello Magazine" goals of boyfriends and white weddings with everlasting bliss following hot on the heels.

Societal entrainment (or brain washing as to what goals are desirable and will get you love, joy, respect and acceptance!) is insidious and amazingly powerful.

But it still wasn't powerful enough to overcome my "unconscious sabotage" and that's amazing in and of itself.

So what does that mean about goals?

Especially the kind that just don't seem to want to materialise, no matter how hard you visualsie or how much you think you deserve them or want them or how happy you think they might make you in the end?

If it's gone on for a long time and caused much friction and frustration, I would stop and look at the ACTIONS that really DID occur, things that really did happen during that time.

What did you REALLY do, not what did you think you were supposed to do or wanted to have done?

Therein lies not just clues, but the ACTUAL IRREFUTABLE EVIDENCE as to what you're all about.

If you then even filter for things that gave you the greatest pleasure, you'll get a "connect the dots" picture emerge of your life in REALITY.

And some of these old "Wonderful Life" goals just don't belong there.

To let them go is INCREDIBLE in the depth and breadth of relief, freedom, peace all of a sudden and then, a wow sweep of energy as all that internal struggle finally ceases.

I don't know whether all of this applies to people "off the street", I suspect it does just the same only the whole thing is more unconscious anyway.

But for people who've been heavy duty "personal developing" and for many years, I know for a fact it does.

The conscious mind can't win against the rest of the human totality, and especially not long term. The conscious has to "change it's mind" as to what we should be doing with our respective lives here, and that means changing our goals or at least questioning them seriously.

Conscious sabotage leads to a lot of moaning, a sense of unfulfilment and endless experience of failure, and nothing more.

Personally, I'm glad I learned that in time.


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Two quotes from 2003:

If instead of judging our actions, we were to simply observe them, we would begin to learn something about their purposes.

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Our actions are the devices to explain to us why we are here and what it is we are doing.

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